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CHOKED

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What do you do when your body and mind is stressed? I've been so stressed lately. I literally drag my body out of the bed most times and even after two cups of coffee, I'm still not mentally alert. This past few months has been a hell of a roller coaster. My body has been forced to extremes I never knew it could attain.  I have even had to zone out on several occasions just to have a touch of reality in it's real sense.  I recently found out that my brain doesn't rest. Even while sleeping, I still unconsciously do some mind work. In as much as I try so hard to stop and really allow the brain  to rest, it's still not possible. (Does this happen to anyone?) The irony of life is quite funny at times. People see you all glammed and happy and forget that we sometimes deal with so many challenging life situations. This year has been a really tough year. Tough because I've had to deal with issues I never had to face in my entire life. (Story I'll defi

The "9-5" Mindset

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Being an employee has taught me alot. I've had to deal with deadlines, presentations I have no idea what should be said, switching to an idustry I was 100% clueless. Few weeks into working I stumbled into a book called "The rules of work". As usual I delved in and at the end I could summarily say the book was all about "Kissing your boss's ass". (Which in my opinion is not entirely the reality) In as much as the book sold a stereotyped opinion about employee and employer relationship, I still picked up a lot of valuable content that has helped me through work. A wholistic mindset about work or working for another person stems from being an employee who has taken ownership of the business or an employee who has once worn the shoes of an entrepreneur and is willing to serve. Mine has been a bit of both. Starting an online business while still actively in a 9-5 has given me quite  a balanced mindset. Generally speaking, most employees has im

Now what?

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I can't over emphasize the fact that ''sleep'' is the new terror in my life. I'm trying so hard to fight it and it looks like I can't win. You don't want to know what time I woke up. Now lets go ahead to the thoughts occupying my pretty little head.  We all want a perfect life full of joy, fun, laughter and LOVE. I want that too, but this morning all I could think about is a ME time. Just alone and living the life of my dreams. (I've been pretty alone though) First I wake up in a really cozy bed with lots of ''fluffiness''.......if you know what I mean. Now this room right here would make you dream of bliss and comfort would be your second name.  With this kind of room, I don't need anybody waking me up in the morning cause I'll sleep till my eyes refuse to close. Now let's take a royal bath to begin the day. Mind you, this life I'm painting doesn't involve waking up early and going to work. Ple

Thoughts In My Head.

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Currently on my way for a meeting I'm obviously late for (thanks to sleep that won't leave me alone) Just before I continue, please let me digress a bit.  It's really been difficult waking up early these past few weeks. I don't even hear the alarm ring anymore. I just find myself waking up at few minutes past 7am as though the ''alarm system'' in my body was set at that time.  I find myself rushing off to work cause I resume at 8am and waking up at 7am only gives me barely 30 minutes to get ready and leave the house. (On a lighter note, you needed to have seen me on Thursday last week. I was literally looking like a homeless drug addict. I was scared to look at my self twice in the mirror) The struggle is  real but we must conquer. Joggling two careers is so not easy but the interesting thing is that passion just makes it more exciting. Now back to the racing thoughts in my head while still in traffic.  I was talking to a friend last nig

When You Are Young...

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When you are young......''everything seems possible" When you are young......''everything is about the now'' When you are young......''life seems to revolve around you'' When you are young......''posterity doesn't make much sense to you'' When you are young......''unnecessary competition amongst your peers seems to be the standard'' When you are young......''Integrity and accountability is not found in your dictionary. Life revolves around us just perfectly well for one to learn certain vital things about life (if you are observant). I admire every youth, Its the prime of everyone's life and its equally a time we make the most mistakes of our life. Fortunately, its the time we should learn and get better equipped for the most interesting part of our later life.  If I've learnt anything in life, its to live one day at a time, but most importantly to live my best with

I stooped......to what END?

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I always knew I had so much inside of me and that it would take alot to achieve my dreams. I got scared at a point, but fear wasn't the solution. So I stooped to conquer.  I incubated and I'm still incubating. I stooped to learn, to hone my skills, to get ready for the journey, to set a pace for generations yet unborn, to create a outstanding platform for not just myself but for the thousands who in the course of this journey called life are connected to me. In doing this, I willingly volunteered to help others nurture their dreams as I understood at an early age that "one never looses anything in helping others,  but rather never lacks help when he/she needs it" It's not been an easy journey.  I've been thrown bricks at by the ones I choose to help. I've been abused and forced to rethink if I'm actually doing the right thing.  Giving up has been the best option but thanks to those "silly" write ups sparsely glued to my

TEARS OF REBECCA

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 Tell me something on your mind, something you've longed to say but no one is considered worthy of hearing it.  Some would judge you when they hear it and some would consider it an abomination. Some would say nice things to your face, but beneath those smiles that exposes their half white set of teeth is a leeching claw waiting to dig deep into the victim and suck up all the reason for your existence.  Living becomes nearly as frequent as a ritual. Leftovers of my remains rot in my eyes and the me who once vowed to'' live life'' and enjoy every split second, whisked away like a sooth dispersing its gathered particles.  I've sat face to face with my other half and I was dripping in pity for the image that stared right back at me. Her face was engulfed in darkness while her eyes struggled to shine hope but with very little effect. Her frame swung from one end to the other:  left, right left, right left, right Humming sweet bitter tones draped in pitiab