CRISIS............... From the past.

                                       EPISODE        4

....................................He couldn't sleep. She was one woman he had loved sincerely and was willing to go any length just to prove it. He wanted more from her, everything, heart and soul, commitment, marriage and children. She could sense that in him, but she was not ready to give. She had nothing left for him. All she could do was take, or maybe extend herself for a little while. All her love had been given too long ago and all her energies were reserved for her work and the bitterness that would trigger her vengeance.

''You should go see a therapist''. He sat up staring into her eyes as though he wanted to rip every information off her and she had no intention of obliging him. 

''I can't'' She said, turning to the other side of the room and backing him. 

''You're not helping yourself ''. He was obviously getting upset and the tone in his voice was evident.

''You are twenty-six years old and you have a big problem''

''I can live with it, I didn't ask for your help''

''You're not living, you are just existing in your own little world''

She was getting angry too. He had no right to talk to her about her life. Where was he when she was denied the right to a family, where was he when she was treated with disdain and thrown into the streets to fend for herself at such an early age. He would never understand what she had been through. 

''I'll get better with time''

''With time''?

He gently turned her so she could face him. "Did you say with time, maybe when you are forty or fifty, then you can be totally ok''

''I said I'll get better with time. You don't have to make judgments on how I live just because I wouldn't make  love to you.

''Christ! c'mon. It's not about the sex. You need help and I'll go through the sessions with you. 

The tension in the room was rising and he knew she was getting upset. 

She smiled, sphinx-like. ''You don't need to bother yourself. It's not that bad.

''I don't buy you idea. You've lived your whole life behind a walled fortress and you shut every one out. Why?

''Because there used to be a lot of people out there to hurt me''

''Why would they want to hurt you?''

''Are they still trying to hurt you?''

''Why not..................He felt the questions were too much already. He held her closer to his bare chest and kissed her forehead. She was so warm and soft and she could hear his heart beat. 

''I wouldn't let them hurt you, trust me''

That word was long gone in her life and she knew she may never trust anyone again. He leaned down and kissed her lips and this time passionately and she responded. They both sat at the edge of the unmade bed where their passion had been cut short. 

''Meg..............I will never hurt you...........I swear...........I would never make you cry. He had tears in his eyes and he wished he could wipe all her pains away. He hugged her tightly 

''I love you.........''

She had no answer to those words and only looked at him hoping she would love him. She saw sincerity in his eyes and that gave her a good feeling. 

He smiled down at her and kissed her again. He understood. 

''It's okay, you don't have to say anything. Just let me love you''.

He lay her back against the pillow and gently pulled her body closer with one hand and allowed his fingers to work all over her body. He gently touched her breasts with his tongue, then down to her belly and navel and then up to her neck. After minutes of it, she was moaning and writhing for something more, but he wouldn't go in. 

He allowed her feel him and touch his pounding organ. He ran it over her like a sequence and she bent over and began to kiss it and touch him gently until he was writhing like she was. He touched her and felt her cold with fear

''It's alright,..........Meg.................I won't hurt you.........please let me...........please.............Oh Gosh, you are so soft and sweet.........''

He gently spread her legs apart and slowly he entered her and soothed her until he came. She didn't join him but it was better than the first time. 

''I'm so sorry Hun..............I wouldn't have..............''

''It's Ok, it was awesome''

She soon slept off and he watched her sleep. She looked calm and quiet but not on the inside. He wondered why she couldn't trust him to help her. He was willing to do anything...........just anything. 

He left early the next morning while she prepared for work and asked her to lunch later in the day, but she declined saying she would be too busy. He left and minutes later the door bell rang and he was at the door staring at her in desperation.

''I wanted to ask you if you could  spend the Sunday with me. I'm going over to my parent's and it's my mum's birthday. 

She looked at him strangely as though she was about to say no to him, but the disappointment on his face made her say yes to him 

''I already told them about you and they would love to meet you''

''It's ok, I'll come with you. 

He left immediately after he kissed her on the forehead. She closed the door in trepidation. She didn't want to be deeply involved with him and now parents were going to be involved and they would definitely ask a lot of questions. She quickly took her breakfast uninterestedly and hurried out.

                                                             ..........to be continued

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